2006-05-26 - 2:39 p.m.
even the times when i feel something upsetting or frustrating deep in me but don't know what it is my shoulders tense up. i always think that if the next stage of life is predictable or apparent to me then the anxiety and frustration will disappear, but if it's not this then it's something else. i wonder if i'll ever get over these sorts of feelings. i used to think that over time it would get better, or something to that affect. i suppose it's not as bad as it used to be, but when difficult situations arise it's alive and well. i need to start playing the guitar more often.
